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a whole lot of nothing

a whole lot of nothing
say where you been gone,
the only thing I know is that

the end is a coming,
leading us along,
party at your house but the

doors are all locked and
windows boarded up,
weeds in the garden they

told us not to stay,
told us to grow up
but we are on the edge

and it’s all, it’s all, it’s all over again
I’ve been down, I’ve been down, been waiting for the end…

totally worth it,
depending when you ask,
alarms are going off and there’s

no stopping now
control yourself at last
going way too fast

hot on the heels
of the latest and the best
newest and the next

nature of the beast,
the greatest and the worst
finding out what works

When it’s all, it’s all, it’s all over again
I’ve been down, I’ve been down, I’ve been waiting for an end…

ready to go out,
and ready to give in,
to this whole lot of nothing

ready to go out,
and ready to give in
to the promises of something

ready to go out,
ready to give in,
down and out and up with it again

Chords: e c d

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Thus ends…

Thus ends the age of exploration
Now Rules of Grammar and stuffy constants constrain
Fixed and steady, RIGID and arbitrary
While whipped on a whippet of wind,
Deserted, rejected, injected and binned,
Age turns the skin inside out
And indoors retreated, energy sapped by drought,
Deflated, negated,
A simple progression fated comes about,
This mortal poison combines,
A mutual perversion politely arrives

But hey,

Was there ever another way?
Was there another road cut into the mountain?
We are mostly space
But quantum freedom is not our own to chase

Gullible gilled and designed for speed,
Gaffed distilled for the life we need…

Arched around the margins,
Angled in the main,
Moving through the darkness
Echoing the same.

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Turlough

winter water levels lough corrib

Turlough

Here comes the flood
The beat of rain in the dark,
Here comes the water,
Streams of pain make their mark.

A shoreline appears,
From the stone come angry waves,
A sinking in tears,
Of moments that nobody saves

The flotsam and leftovers,
Of the lost and the gone,
Are tearing at the souls
Of those that move on

The lake is returning,
Chewing on edges of fields,
They can be mourned,
Sadly in deepness that seals

The Turlough is born,
Again from the summer’s retreat,
The seasons will turn,
But seconds will hammer and beat

The friction and filing
Of the self by the slip
Is scraping the core,
Of the centre we grip

A surface so rough,
Broke up by currents and air,
The thought is enough
To flood the heart with despair

Our world can be dark,
Punctured by few days of sun,
The way can be stark,
These wet roads flow into one.

Sit there and watch
As it swallows the ground in a gale
Kneel now to catch
The sunken reminding detail

The flotsam and leftovers,
Of the lost and the gone,
Are tearing up the souls
Of those that move on

The friction and filing
Of the self by the slip
Is scraping the core,
Of the centre we grip

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FUD

Fear Uncertainty Doubt

an outpouring of fragmented images and scattershot thought

Cathedral hum
Buzz of the racks of servers
Hooded servants tending to their machines
Absorbed in the satisfying drone
About their business bound
In the hush of the deserted

Searching for that lull,
That interconnectedness that falls sometimes
Where your feet are part of the ground and beyond
And the moment seems full and found
Or at least not tied to a million other strands,
Passed from hand to hand

Purpose, purpose, where have you gone?
The machines rumble on,
Processors whipping acres of data through thick twisting cables
Hanging of our every word, recording, changing, sending

But no value can be found there,
It is not a church, it is a lab,
And despite the promises of inherent chaos
We are blown back with inscrutable maths
While those who can seem to see,
In their countenance we cannot mark enlightened glee,
They would surely be happy if they knew,
And I would too.

No matter the angle,
Twisted into an awkward gaze,
I can only see out of these eyes, and use these colours
To paint the signals and stimuli and others
No matter the stance,
Hanging around the entrance to the maze
I can only touch with these hands, and feel these pains
Too faint to penetrate the passers by

What is worthy of the power?
The booming repetition of the will expressed
Generations unfolding and blooming by the hour
Accelerated arcs of change sent spiralling into the system
Their foreign remarks exchanged all saying the same thing-
We must be different, must be here, must be here by now

From this comfort under the stairs of progress,
Eye to the keyhole of the purring motherboards,
See silicon love melted into the city sky
Chemical symbols welded and wielded high,
Signs of stars in ironic limbo, waiting for their burst
The flickering fickle edges of a screen’s vision immersed
Bowing to the crowd and then bent double, triple, versed, drunk!
A cocktail of ill-conceived raps,
To be misperceived and forgotten.

We are drowned out in the glare of ourselves,
When we stretch to extend the humanity it deserves
Cupped hands politely ask for money and land
Genetic thrusts and frenetic digging in the sand.

Analysed to the nth degree,
Lose the humour and mystery that cloaks the known scale,
Till unbidden the light reveals the hidden dark,
And no more talk of a cross or an ark,
There is nothing left that can be known
And the ends of the world are insubstantial

Significance distilled, meaning tilled,
Wandering the wonders barefoot, skilled
Where is the direction that will
Leave ourselves with each other?
And to hell with the whole and its brother

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streetegy

streetegy

[audio:http://donalkelly.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/11/streetegy.mp3|titles=streetegy]

Your stare is following the sound
I can’t be found, I’m not around
And though we’re trying hard,
We’re losing touch, caught in this rush

We go moving up the board
For nothing much, the greater good.
We roll from square to square,
As checkmate nears, we face our fears

One last push to cross the line
Where no man’s land is burned
On my day, and in my prime
The battle shakes my world

A game of chance, a game of change,
the rules are overturned
Guns are rumbling into range,
the pawn in play has learned
Has learned…
Has learned…

I’m told I cut it fine
I did not hear I was not near
I wish I opened up,
No road to cross, direction lost

This quiet in the air
For all our might we cannot fight
Inside, confusion hides
The honesty that’s leaving me

And one last push to cross the line
where no man’s land is burned
and on my day, and in my prime
The battle shapes my world

A game of chance, a game of change,
the rules are overturned
Guns are rumbling into range,
the pawn in play has learned
Has learned…
Has learned…

Dispense my strategy
I was aware I could not see
Dispose reality
The mind decides what seems to be

Vs. Am F C G

Cs. F G Am F

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Another sidelong glance will suffice

it’s all consuming, rest assured
Out the other side for sure
We are beating all around the bush
Breaking bottles in a rush

Nearly ready to be fooled,
Prepare and sharpen your sharpest tools
Almost time to draw the line
From your space to mine

From your space to mine,
Share a little of the sublime..

It could have been, it might have worked
Slaves to passing selves and passions
As close as skin and full of worth
We come apart to sell the rations

Sulk away to scratch the surface
Wander off to taste the night,
Tail-lights idling in the darkness
Turning back to face the light.

You were born in the wrong place…
And now unwinding into space,
A long way out from the chosen shore,
There’s no way in when you ask for more.

You appeared in the wrong time,
The present is always out of line.
But no definition will ever suit,
Ideas wear a bold salute.

As usual I have no clue,
Of who I am or what to do,
We drift along or rush to find
The same old places that come to mind…

Clean as a whistle, sharp as a tack,
I see my mistake, and I take it back,
Thorns from a thistle, thorns from a rose
Torn between tortures, the garden grows…

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Distorted Expressions of Selfness

I’ve worked too long to let it go
My grip, the fit, the form, the flow,
Holding on and holding off for something slow

Words, a theme, some random tune,
Your smile, my frown, the cresent moon,
Hanging on and trying to find the way to go

Express yourself and walk away,
No other truth you’ll hear today
Get over it and head on down the road

A change, a shift, our paradigm
Is locked away, our backs are turned
I’m disappointed in the way that things have worked out

My blood, it flows, in red arrays
My heart, it goes, my head delays
I wish I had the instinct left to get about.

Express yourself and walk away,
It doesn’t matter what you say
Get over it and head on down the road

I don’t know why my altitude,
Is falling while I flap my mood
I guess I can’t know how to control my fate

A mask, too sharp, and mass produced,
A crash, a fire, a land reduced
We must agree on something more than mutual hate

Express yourself and walk away,
No better way to pass a day
get over out, and head on down the road

I’ve read some books, and seen some films
They don’t respond to my demands
I soak them up, they soak me every other time

These lessons learned are quick forgot
I love and lose what I have got
I wish I could make more sense of these lines of mine

I’m sorry babe if I’m not right,
I’m merely out of tune tonight,
Expect the best, you get the edge of things

Just save yourself and walk away
No other truth you’ll find today
Get over it, and move off up up the road
Move off up the road
Move off up the road.

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Scattershot (blues)

Tumbleweed,
On you lead.

Rainshower,
On the hour.

I’ve got the grey-day roundabout blues,
And why should I not pick and choose?
The city closes in again you lose.
Scattershot me, living askew

Raw Power,
In a cage,

Dead Flower,
On the page,

I’ve got the woodland misty blues,
And why should I not pick and choose?
The forest closes in again you lose.
Scattershot me, living askew.

Fresh meat,
There to eat.

Dead heat,
Must repeat.

I’ve got funereal queue blues,
And why should I not pick and choose?
Life wanders off again you lose.
Scattershot me, living askew.

Time spent,
Good intent.

Money lent,
Off it went.

I’ve got the workday morning blues,
And why should I not pick and choose?
Breakfast missed again you lose.
Scattershot me, living askew.

So where did it go?
And what did it do?
Was it me, we, or you?

I’ve got the last song last verse blues,
And why should I not pick and choose?
Solo home again again you lose.
Scattershot me, living askew.

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Onfeedence

onfeedence

Money in the meter,
Honey in my head
Money in the meter,
Frozen in my bed

Hardly in the moment
Hurry, get ahead, but
Barely any movement,
Somewhere else instead.

And oh the restless guests they are not feeling all the best
They are rattling empty bottles and complaining of the low
Now come across those meanings and get them off your chest
It’s a live live oh in the spotlights of the show

Better off in transit,
Or setting foot in homes
Bitter from the transit,
Living off their loans

Startled by a welcome
Stranger caught off guard
Visiting hours are lonesome
Leaving always hard.

But why the hanging face when all the features are in place?
Why cut the growing space with guilty thoughts that dull the glow
Falling back on extracts- someone else’s propped up days
Still a live live oh in the spotlights of the show

Money in the meter
Counting down and out
Time spent in ether
Throwing weight about

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traction fragments

Are you going in?
Are you going in?

traction fragments

Good grip in these tires.
Good shit, as far as it goes.
But I cannot keep it lit.
A cliche that won’t hurt a bit.

Easy now, in it goes.
A spot of blood on your clothes.
No need to bother,
It’ll sort itself out.
Take care of no other,
No one else is about.

It’s just you and your nature,
And the battle between the slits,
An instant extended,
A hole made of bits.

So take the whole damn insect army,
Take the pain from its point,
Clean away what was hurting,
Break the bones at the joint.

Toss the lifelines overboard,
Too frayed and old to save us,
We must express our contempt for the here and now,
By becoming redundant somehow.

Floodwaters already overhead,
Stink of drowned rats sinking down below.
Cover the hatch with plastic figurines,
Cover the hatch and lets go…

Now I never called it a moral issue,
It’s my life and I steer clear of the ethical.
But suppose I was in the mix,
I would never get out alive with these tricks.

No, I would prefer to wait here and mull inside.
Over things that have happened and have not,
Let shards of broken moments blow smoke into my full eyes,
Let all that’s passing join what I forgot.

The convoy may or may not find us,
Passing ocean liners are too busy looking after each other,
We can wander in the caked sand until we go mad with hunger,
Or we could just not bother.

So may every cheap sentence end with an exclamation mark,
May every cheap trick fill us with pride.
The power and the glory in the brute energy of letting go,
Every other shot fired wildly wide.

Here comes the winter and its wares,
A noisy ruckus on the damp road,
Emerging from the green trees pulling a carpet of torn leaves,
Open mouthed greedy gaping grin hanging loose.
Eyes aloft at the sky, drinking in the colour and space.
I had something to say,
But forgot as it passed,
Swallowed the word and let it stick in my throat.
Could not speak, try as I might,
Half ideas banked in a snowed-in mind in the decaying light,
Entropy or circles?
A line or a loop?
Caught between the two sames,
I pick at the bloodstains,
Little pieces of scab under my fingernails.

Cannot keep it lit,
But it won’t hurt a bit-
Not where we’re going,
If only we could move…

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Room to move

CH: C G Am F (with variations)

Standing in a queue
People doing what they do
Headphones blocking out the sound
It’s like there’s no-one else around

Outside everything seems fine
Pople standing in a line.
Paint is fading on the walls
Paint is fading and I’m watching while I’m waiting…

Holding on to pictures that are moulded to your eyes
I could have told you how to break yourself away
We listen to each other but we’re hearing empty murmers
I just never have a better word to say

Taste of beer is on my breath
Waste of changes that I get.
Room to move I can’t expect.
I will I hope I guess I know I’ll get.

Dug a hole to find the ground,
Buried everything I found.
Ripples on the surface of a game,
The deeper skin is getting hard to name.

Oh I need some closure,
Find some steps to make it over,
Stay awake until I break into a dream.
I strip away the layers, find the soggy core
Is there something left behind the way things seem?

Keeping busy going slow
Neglect, regret, respect the daily flow.
leaves of love left scattered on a street
Organic lumps of heart beneath our feet.

Form a frame to search around
From here appears a famous sound.
People living out the rules
Out of bounds or following the fools.

Holding on to pictures that are moulded to your eyes
I could have told you how to break yourself away
We listen to each other but we’re hearing empty murmers
I just never have a better word to say.

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Cultural Evolution

Feck it! We’ll throw the empty books on the fire,
And feck them! While they burn we’ll be warm.
But it won’t be long before the flames dip down,
And we lose all sight of shape and form.

And in the dimness miss each other’s features,
As darkness marks the faces of us creatures
Feck it! Burn the full books too!
And madly dance till a pagan sun shows through,

Throwing shadows from the mounds of ash
Morning rising up at last…

It will find us sleeping in the cinders,
Entangled, charred, dreaming-
Of crazy nights and scorched words,
Burnt bridges and burnt worlds.

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spilling over

Up at the dawn with an eye to the breeze
Still half asleep with a head full of dreams
The cool air is clear here it fills up my lungs
The night put behind me left speaking in tongues

And life spills from my hands
When i try to make demands..

The morning is yawning but there’s no way to stay,
The bright leaves of Autumn on a September day
A stranger to guide me or to get me so lost
That I fail to remember what I came here for first

And life spills from my hands,
As i wander through these lands.

The seasons are flowing from one to the next,
But I’m stranded and static and covered in dust
Shake me awake from this warm comfort zone
Send me away to get out on my own.

And life spills from my hands
When i seek to tie the strands

And life spills from my hands
And ignores my own commands.

It’s mashed up and mixed up and rolling at pace
The lines of your fine times are etched on your face
Decisions revisions, rich pickings to claim
Distractions, retractions, left seeming the same.

And life spills from my hands
What i know misunderstands

We’re uptight but upright and rising the curve
Statistics predicting the fate of the world
In debt and in doubt and in full disrepair
But still we can savour the taste of the air.

Yes life spills from my hands
When i try to grip too hard to plans…

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Easy in your own skin?

Are you easy
In your own skin?
Does it take a lot of work
just to feel that you fit in?

Should we try this hard to be ourselves
When the force distorts our simple loves?

I see your gaze now as it turns away,
Like you don’t know what you want to say.
See your hand curl into a fist-
There is always something that you will have missed.

Join the club,
It’s not real,
There is no law to tell us how to feel.

Are you easy in your own skin?
Will you walk along this way again?
You know I wore that look before you came
But I took it down to light the light in.

A work in progress till I die,
I know I fail but at least I try
And I wander through my waking mind
See shades of you in what I find.

Are you easy in your own skin?
Do you wear it like a shelter?
Do you have to prove your worth to men,
Regardless of the weather?

I see your gaze now as it turns away
Like you don’t know what you want to say
See your hand curl into a fist
There is always something that you will have missed

Join the club,
It’s not real,
There’s no law to tell us how to feel.

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Falling through cracks

[audio:http://donalkelly.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/09/fallingThroughCracks.mp3|titles=fallingThroughCracks]

V1
He knows knothing about things like this,
Drifting along in a twist.
Falling behind, failing to find,
A place that will give peace of mind

He’s just a trier, too honest to boot,
What you have you can lose if you hear too much truth.
Choosing a road, hatching a plan,
Navigate ways, become who you are.

C
He’s gone, gone,
Falling through cracks in his mind.
And we’re on, on, just deliver your lines when it’s time.

V2
Into the wind, and the air, and the sky
From passive existence, dramatic cry
Sand of a desert, grains of a love,
Scattered away, blown from above.

Hours ticking over, restless machine,
Remorseless reminder of places we’ve been
I know nothing about anything I say
Just trying to make sense and stay sane for today

C2
She’s gone, gone,
Fallen through cracks in the ground
And we’re on, on, delicate souls all around

B
So it won’t go the way it’s supposed to
Dreams getting smashed on the shore
When they turn and they leave with a piece of your heart
You want them to come back for more…

V3
Try to get closer
But for you it’s over
I need to forget to survive
Still have that longing
Believing belonging
To the pains of being alive

C3
It’s gone, gone,
Falling through cracks that are tearing apart
We’re on, on, paths that are pointing away in the dark…

It’s gone,
Falling through cracks where there’s no going back
We’re on, arrows of light in the black

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Damage Control Central (Take a Shot)

Demo (Fragment): [audio:http://donalkelly.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/08/takeAShot.mp3|titles=takeAShot]

Come take a shot at it
Target you can’t miss
In your crosshairs still
If you don’t I will

In your hands I see a weapon
In your eyes I see a light

Come lift away the layers
Peeling back the skin
Damaged from the tear
Healing by your skill

In our minds I fear a vacuum
In our hearts I feel a fight

Go trespass on my land
Pull down all the locks
Open all my gates
let the prisoners out

On your side a sense of wonder
In your day a distant night

The truth is raw inside
An open handed fist
Want you by my side
So you cannot miss

In your hands I put a weapon
In your head I put a choice

In your hands I see a weapon
In your head I hear a voice…

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Off the Ledge

Demo:[audio:http://donalkelly.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/08/FallingNotFlying4.mp3|titles=Off the Ledge]

G E F
Fell out of a window
G E F
Fell way out into the sea
Where waves of isolation
Drag everything away from me
Thought I heard a bird sing
But it was your alarm ring
Just ready to forgive me
Still swallowed by the tide so deep, yeah

Fell out of a window
Fell, float away from company
well, shores of seperation
Still waters in my memory
Sure I hear a gunshot
Not another big wind blowin’
Got a little way to go now
A little way left to creep

Met a real woman with her arms uncurled
When I woke I saw her sober, from another world
Met a real woman, with her love intact,
When I woke I saw her shimmer, more imagined than a fact

Feel like falling ice
Hear that funny voice
Feel like feeling nice
Gonna make a big new total choice

Travel up the coastline
With a full Sail set
Went sinking to the bottom like a lump of lead
Leave a life beind you
Did I fall, was I pushed?
Did I leave a life behind me
Was it living all that much?

Fell out of a window
Fell, looking for a place to be
Till times’s articulation
Tells how it is to be so free
Must have been the moonlight
That led me to this blue night
What did I do to get here
Why did I have to slip so deep, yeah

Woah, yeah!

SO deep, where the mind is loose and mean ideas creep

Woah, oh yeah…

Met a real woman with her arms uncurled
When I woke I saw her sober, someone from another world
Yes I found a real woman with her love intact
But when I woke I seen her fading, more a dream than a fact.

Travel up the coast with a full sail set
Now sinking to the bottom like a lump of lead.

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Showtime

Demo: [audio:http://donalkelly.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/08/Show.mp3|titles=Show]

Leave your shack,
Can’t look back,
Feet falling as they cover cracks
Time to move my mindset, and move it right
Fight the dying rays of this fading light
So you’re so young now
But it won’t last long
This weak old man was once just as strong
Gather up those thoughts
Harvest in those crops
Pull in your nets and traps
before the winter drops

Just a show, kind of slow, kind of slow

Make a mental note
To get a bigger vote
Burn the ballot card
While the living’s hard
Don’t turn away to think
Go look it in the eye
Smell the rising stink
Where your reasons fly
Call the waiter here
Pay up the bill and clear
Before the food is delivered
We got the future considered
Change is not an option
It’s a solid fact
Arrange yourself so option
It becomes an act

Are we in control, When we’re so remote- Are we in control?

I was alone that night, on my own again
Listening to the silence
Some forgotten sin
Lets be polite and plain
Swap the sun for rain
While we speak and shrug
Of what I can’t explain
Now computer teeth
Reach for the climate switch
Hungry money greet
Starve inside the ditch
Still symmetry hold
Some order in the fold
Aimless story told
To warm the simply cold

Just a show, don’t you know, weren’t you told?

Are we in control, when we’re so remote, were you never told?

Is that a sound outside, better go an check
My paranoi primed, my picture looks a wreak,
Gotta take a shower, need to clean my mind
Try to chase the power, don’t know what I’ll find
In every story mud, in every moment dirt
In what you thought was good
Just get your money’s worth
Our eyes are sieves and signs
Our love is stretched and strained
Our shadows mock our lines
Nothing ventured gained

It was just a show, it was so remote, and I’ll never know.

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fIre and nIce

Fire smile light touch time

You got more fire
Than you you know how to deal with
Fire,
Than you know how to deal with
(you got more) Fire
Than you know how to keep inside

You got a great smile
And you know how to use it
smile
you know just how to use it
(you got a great) smile
that you know how to keep outside

I can see your light,
But you’re tired of it anyway
Light
when you’re tired of it go away
(I can see your) light
but you’re tired of keeping up the fight

I need your touch
Because I know how it feels
Your touch,
cause I know just how it feels
(I need your) touch
Because I know it makes me feel alright.

But you got no time
To give away to anyone
time
to give away to anyone
(you got no) time
to give to let me make you mine.

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Singalong Blues

[audio:http://donalkelly.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/08/SINGAL.mp3|titles=Singalong Blues (Take 1)]
Am G F#/G
If you had heard half a song,
Turned and went to run,
A road that stretches on and on,
Before your days are done.

If you had listened for a while,
Felt the beat and call,
Fought for miles, sat down to sigh,
Where the dew will fall.

–C–
And even as you drifted far away,
I was writing this to make you stay.
Even as you packed up and you left,
I was telling you just how I felt…

If you had memorized the tune,
Recall it as you walk,
Footsteps softly in the gloom,
When it’s too late to talk

And if we had beaten out that rhyme,
Simple as a match,
A melody burning yours and mine
Easy as a cold to catch.

–C–
And even as you drifted far away,
I was writing this to make you stay.
Even as you packed up and you left,
I was getting to just how I felt…

And if there was nothing in the song,
A restless ragged verse,
To help you lift yourself along,
In love you can immerse.

But maybe there is something in the lines,
A little heart and soul,
Can you feel those fleeting vibes
Fill the deepest hole?

Even as you drifted far away,
I was writing this to make you stay,
Even as you pack up and are gone,
Will you sing along?
With this broken song,
A sorry open song.
A simple hopeful song.

Chapters of a story lost and found
Twisted plotless play
Make up meaning as a craft,
But it’s throw-away

Time moves slowly in the wind,
Hours spent swapping tales,
Rain is soaking everything we find
In the stormy gales.